It’s starting…

Friends, romans, blogreaders, lend me your ears. I have come to bury my work, not to praise it. This morning seemed decent enough. Besides getting completely soaked in the rain and throwing up all I ate for breakfast, I had a mocha peppermint frapp in hand and a good outlook for the day. I even had a fun list in my head to put up on my blog.

All that changed within 2 minutes of getting to work. I was called into a conference room for what I was hoping was a brainstorming session. I brought my frapp and a pen and paper. My boss had a very formal piece of paper that he kept looking at. It didn�t take long for me to figure out where this was going. I started to cry.
They�re laying the groundwork to get rid of me. It seems as if I have been given my final warning. Too bad I never got the first or second one. This is it for me here. My boss doesn�t want to do this, but he has to do what is told. I�ve been formally reprimanded, which is the last stage before firing.
I told him the truth. I�m pregnant, am learning to deal with all that goes with this, am tired of the job, feel that I�m being picked on because I�m different, yadda yadda yadda. I told him I�m already looking elsewhere for employment. He understands. Being different here isn�t accepted. Being 23 (24 tomorrow), writing features and being pregnant isn�t very good, either.
Maybe this is the answer to my prayer. I asked God to show me what was right, what I was supposed to do. To give me a sign. Maybe this little piece of paper with my signature on it is my sign. I didn�t want it to be this way. I wanted to leave on my own terms, which I still am, I guess.
Obviously, I�m very upset right now. I�m learning the Cold Hard Truth about my place of employment. I�m not supposed to really use the internet anymore. But I�m sure I�ll find a way to blog.
Until then�.

10 Comments

  1. Wow, I’m sorry. I hope something good comes from all of this. I know it’s hard when this happens when you’re pregnant. I had my job eliminated with each of my first 2 kids.

    It’s scary, but hang in there, the right thing for you will come along.

    Comment by Busy Mom — 11/19/2003 @ 3:28 pm

  2. I’m sorry about your job, but you may be right, it could be the sign you were asking for. I am sure as talented a writer as you are that you will find something much better soon. Hey I know it’s not much help right now but look at it this way, you can blog all you want there, I mean really what are they going to do to you? Good luck with everything, I would give you a hug but my wife would probably kick my ass for even thinking it, uh oh must hide browser history. ;-)

    Comment by Jeff A — 11/19/2003 @ 3:33 pm

  3. You know that I’m in the business too, and I read many many many stories every day. But there’s a reason that I willingly visit your site almost daily: cuz you have talent! Whether it be in journalism or writing your book, you have a talent. You’ll find someone that appreciates it, I have no doubt. Keep your chin up! And, if you ever need ANYTHING, you know how to find me, OK?

    Comment by James — 11/19/2003 @ 3:53 pm

  4. That really stinks, but I think it’s typical. It shows they don’t really care about you and your talents. I imagine they’ll have to live without them soon enough.

    If the main issue is your pregnancy, it is illegal for them to discriminate against you. If other factors are contributing (as in the effects of pregnancy aren’t letting you perform your normal duties), then maybe a respectful, quiet exit is in order. Even if you leave journalism, your career history can follow you around. Take it from one who’s been there: never burn a bridge.

    Yikes! Didn’t mean to leave such a long comment. Hang in there, SJ! Stay sarcastic!

    Comment by Texas T-Bone — 11/19/2003 @ 3:54 pm

  5. I completely echo the sentiment that girl, you’ve to TALENT! If those idiots can’t see it, then your next employer will be thankful that you’re free. Besides, this frees you up to get that novel sold and published while you are working on novel #2!

    *hugs* I know it totally sucks. I’m sorry!

    Comment by Jenn — 11/19/2003 @ 4:44 pm

  6. What exactly would you be fired for…?

    Comment by Alisha — 11/19/2003 @ 7:22 pm

  7. That reminds me, have you been shopping your novel yet? I want to be first in line for a copy!

    Comment by Jeff A — 11/19/2003 @ 9:47 pm

  8. Oh, honey, I am so sorry. What jackass motherfuckers. They’re going to be surprised to see you one fine Saturday morning when they stroll into Barnes and Noble to find you sitting behind a table surrounded by a bunch of people waiting for you to sign your bestselling novel. Screw them.

    You are going to find something else. You will. It has to be some kind of blessing in disquise, you know. Even though you are very upset now, time will pass and you’ll be so glad you are out of there, away from that place. Something wonderful is in store for you. I feel it in my heart. Hang in there sweetie. Love you. (((HUGS)))

    Comment by Allison — 11/20/2003 @ 7:23 am

  9. Newspapers have this amazing knack for losing their most creative people. Their loss, if it winds up happening, and your gain if this directs you to a place where you can be happier about what you’re doing.

    Comment by Earl Hoffert — 11/20/2003 @ 4:44 pm

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